Self Love

Money, Gratitude and Fire

April 24, 2015
A photo by Carli Jeen. unsplash.com/photos/15YDf39RIVc

There was a period of time in my life where scarcity was my status quo. Business was a cyclical roller coaster. Some days, my bank account sparkled with the crown of a Cash Queen. Other days, it looked like the Sahara. This feast-or-famine pattern became ingrained into my self worth, and I constantly felt like a failure. And even, sometimes, like a victim. “You’re a struggling entrepreneur,” I would tell myself, “You signed up to be poor for an indefinite period of time. Don’t complain. Just work harder.”

Then one day, the stress, the shame and the heartache came to a head and I found myself on my knees in my office.

I will never, ever forget this day.

I had actually been here, on my knees, praying, crying and begging for a miracle, hundreds of times before. But this day was different. On this day, the pain reached a swell. I had no room left to wallow. No energy left to berate myself or my life. Instead, I began listing off, out loud, everything and everyone in my life I was grateful for, and I mean EVERYTHING and EVERYONE. I must have sat there for an hour, talking to the Universe, just sending out massive, massive love to one thing after the next. It was cathartic, emotional, and I can admit, a little dramatic.

Calling BS on my feelings of unworthiness and lack to instead shine light on all that was beautiful, true and abundant in my life felt amazing. Even if it was only for an hour or so.

Then…a miracle a came.

Literally the next day, I got a call out of the blue from a colleague offering me a six-month consulting contract.  The amount of the monthly stipend offered was so large, it put me in an entirely new tax bracket. Soon thereafter, more financial opportunities like this starting rolling in. This contract led to three more contracts, freelance gigs starting picking up, I was getting approached by young women asking me to coach them, and on and on.

This all happened in the span of less than one month’s time.

I didn’t question the irony of this timing. I simply and humbly accepted that the Universe had just given me one hell of a message. I hadn’t been waiting for the Universe. It had been waiting for me. When we stop focusing on what we DON’T have and focus on what we DO, we open the floodgates to true abundance.

Something else shifted that month besides the numbers in my bank account. My attitude about money completely changed…and I truly believe it was this change in perspective that continued to propel my financial opportunities:

Poverty isn’t synonymous with nobility. It just plain sucks. It’s perfectly okay to say “I desire to be wealthy!” and then to go forth and create it. Abundance is awesome and something we should all strive for and celebrate. (Especially when it’s sourced from following our bliss.) I have learned that we are all destined and designed to be prosperous, and there really is enough to go around. Abundance provides us more time, which leads to more freedom, which leads to more joy, which opens up our lives for more opportunities to serve. Period.

(Okay, and fabulous shoes too.)

Look, I know it’s a LOT easier to talk about money this way once you have some. But during what was one of the most painful and poor times in my life, I came to realize it’s not money that fires me up at all. It was during this time that I discovered what fires me up WAY more than making money. In truth, it is this fire that inspired me to create the brand SimplyBe. It was during this time that I did. It’s the real reason I am writing this blog and why you are reading it.

Here’s what fires me up more than anything:

Women who truly love themselves, own themselves and cherish themselves.

Women who boldly shine their light and never apologize for it.

Women who are confident enough to let the shine of OTHERS illuminate them, not threaten them.

Women who hustle.

Women who take big-ass risks and aren’t afraid to fly.

Women who take big-ass risks and aren’t afraid to fall.

Women who know that falling is not only par-for-the-course, but a Divine gift that makes us better.

Women who understand that true abundance comes from the things that have absolutely nothing to do with money: love, joy, connectedness and spirit.

Women who create, innovate and lead as individuals, and are empowered by a community of women doing the same.

Women who are Entrepreneurial Babes.

 What fires YOU up more than anything?

Did it take hitting a breaking point to discover it?

I want to know your story.

That story is part of YOUR brand.

Share it with me…

 

With gratitude,

Jessica

 

 

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  • Missy Martin

    Great Article! The universe is waiting for you…and me! Love it!

  • What fires me up is empowering and encouraging other women to be the best version of themselves. When women collaborate instead of compete. When women step outside of their comfort zones and excel because they have been encouraged. This is my fire!

  • Kellie Annesley-Smith

    thank you for the sweet reminder about the Universe Jessica. Love this article.

  • I’ve been putting so much effort and work into disconnecting myself from what I’ve allowed my worth to be quantified as. I’ve had so many break-throughs, so much forward motion–joined B School, developing a program/brand that will allow me to help others AND create abundance, wealth, and freedom in my own life…but I’m still fighting the demons. I just started a blog post last night because I realized that I’ve been beating myself up for the fact that I’m in a career now that I make a minute amount of income, but I thought that I *should* be able to make it work. I am divorced and my career was considered the “secondary income” for a reason. Now, I just had to cut out more, buy less groceries, not go out…I kept feeling like a failure, that it was my mistakes and irresponsibility that was causing overdrafts and checks to bounce. I did a research/poll for my blog post and asked what others felt was a comfortable amount of monthly income for a family of 3-4 (I’m a single mother with 2 young children). There was an obvious range from location/cost of living in the response, but the numbers were shocking. People that I KNOW live frugally were telling me a reasonable number that was triple to quadruple the amount I was bringing home. The lowest number that was suggested was double what I make. It was my choice to become a teacher and it was my choice to be a divorced mother… but it is not my choice to live in scarcity or fear any longer. All of these money realizations I’ve come to have pushed my purpose. Thank you for your story and especially the sentence in your email that jumped out at me: “The miracle comes when you stop saying ‘YES’ to every single financial opportunity because you realize it’s not a desire for abundance that’s driving you, but your fear of scarcity.”

  • Trish Perillo Inguagiato

    Very powerful and very truthful! Thanks for inspiring young women to be whatever they want to be. We are proud of you Jessica Zweig! xo, Trish Perillo Inguagiato

  • Anna

    Beautifully + simply said Jessica!

  • Anne

    Beautifully written. Thank you for continuing to inspire and empower women, as well as reminding us of the wonderful blessings the Universe holds for each one of us.

  • monica

    powerful story and nice to meet you jessica ~monica with hamsa

  • Wow, this is an amazing post! I love it when the Universe talks to us so clearly. This is such a lovely example of the power of practicing gratitude. So much of life’s hardest obstacles are actually blocks we have to get through from within. I love how you wrote that abundance and wealth should be celebrated and desired especially in relation to following your bliss. What a beautiful thought! Thanks for your uplifting and fire-starting words. I love it!